Phone Free February Challenge Week 1

Week one was a little harder than I originally anticipated. My husband and I decided to add a three day water fast to the start of the month. Really more like a water and black coffee fast. It's surprising to me how quickly I tire of coffee on a fast like this. Neither one of us are new to fasting, although it has been a while since we've done one.

What I found, thanks to my lower energy and occasional hunger pangs, was the first 'hot spot': I reach for my phone to distract me from any discomfort. I also reach for it when I feel tired. I try to numb myself with distraction. This is valuable information.

Instead of giving in, I leaned in. I used the time I would have spent on my phone in self-reflection. I asked myself fun questions like:

That last question, for me anyway, is the one I need to answer the most. I have enough willpower on my own to complete this challenge. I've done it before... but here I am again, miserable and struggling to find hope and joy, because I failed to keep myself from the traps. I was relying solely on myself, and I am not enough alone. This time I know that I have to keep my Creator at the center, and rely on Him. I am not perfect, and I will struggle, but He is my safety net, He makes my struggle worth it.

I now have a little better understanding of what I need to work on. I think it's going to be less filling my time with other things to do, and more time finding out what God wants me to do. Not distracting myself with more distraction, but finding out what I really want. Finding my vision for myself, all within God's will.

Thanks for following along with me.